For 20 years I have worked diligently helping others find the freedom and wholeness that I have found. Yet, I have struggled on and off with aspects of my personality.
I have always heard from the Lord very easily. When I take the time to stop and listen it’s easy. Hearing God, has never been a problem, stopping to listen has been more of the issue.
I am a bit of a driven person. Physiologists would probably classify me as type A. I love to work and have difficulty resting. According to the theory, that means my personality is more competitive highly organized, ambitious, impatient, highly aware of time management and/or aggressive. Another personality or temperament indicators classifies me as choleric with a bit of melancholy added in.
(For more information see, Choleric as defined in an article “4 Primary Temperaments” http://fourtemperaments.com/4-primary-temperaments/ ).
Choleric’s are naturally result-oriented. They have active, positive, and forward movement, in an antagonistic environment. They influence their environment by overcoming opposition to get results.
Choleric’s are extroverted, (actually, I am more introverted) but I am quick-thinking, active, practical, strong-willed, and easily annoyed. They are self-confident, self-sufficient, and very independent minded. According to the article, they are brief, direct, to the point, and firm when communicating with others. A Choleric person likes pressure and is easily bored when things are not happening fast enough. They are bold and like to take risks.
Most of those definitions are true, yet I subscribe to God’s identity. The human race likes to put people into groups and define them. It’s nice to help us understand. However, God makes us all different. He creates us to complement what he created us to do.
But isn’t fun taking all those tests and looking at the indicators.
Most of the aspects of who I am have made it difficult to reconcile with most traditional female Biblical roles. I have encountered many obstacles throughout my life. Those within religion were the most hurtful, especially religious people.
Needless to say, years ago I found myself as a plastic person. What I mean by that description is I didn’t feel real. I knew how to be acceptable (to religious people). I knew what others wanted and expected, but it wasn’t me. Years of attempting to be what others thought I should be, caused me to think there must be something wrong with who I was. I must be broken, I thought. God must have made a mistake somehow.
I struggled for years wondering, God’s Word says He created me, so then how could I be a mistake? This question was connected to a core belief that I held about myself. The enemy used it at every opportunity to enforce his hook into my life. It resulted in anger, disappointment, insecurity, sadness, broken relationships, fear, and control. When I finally reached the end of myself and cried out to the Lord.
“Lord I am at the bottom, I am deep in this pit. I do not want to get this low again. I want to get out everything and look at everything. I don’t want out of this pit until it is all dealt with. I want to stay until when I am squeezed you come out. I am tired of what I am seeing come out of me. I’ll stay until you are done.”
I can say I have never gotten that low again. He was faithful and continues to be. I promised the Lord during that time that I would help others with the help that I found. “Lord if you direct me where I can get help, I will help others get out this dark lonely place,” I promised the Lord.
That journey that God brought me through, is the same path I guide others on when they contact me for assistance.
I work with people who have reoccurring issues they can’t break free from:
- Physically or sexually abused
- Previous Drug and alcohol abuse
- Not able to move on from, broken relationships, the death of someone, or a trauma.
- Those struggling with their beliefs, identity, Godly thinking
- Those who are struggling to pray and connect with God
I work with People who are:
- Tormented by fear or nightmares
- Struggle with control issues or negatively
- Having difficulty being vulnerable
- Not able to love themselves
I provide ministry, teaching, & coaching in the areas of:
- Inner healing
- Prophetic Prayer
- Deliverance Ministry
- Spiritual Warfare teaching and training
- Spiritual gift and ministry activation
- Soul Ties
- Generational Ties – Blood Line issues
- Shame Core
I believe that God is the greatest adventure and that He wants to have an intimate relationship with us. He desires for you to be blessed, prosperous and live an abundant life. He values who you are.